Shadowlight Returns :: The Light Beyond The Shadows 2.3b The Light beyond the Shadows: 08/01/2003 - 09/01/2003

Thursday, August 28, 2003

Off To Kiasuland predecessor


yup yup im off to Penang, toOOooooooooooooOoooooooooooooo
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They also say the grass their taste juicier and greener too!!

MooooooOoooooooooooooooooooooooo
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Tuesday, August 26, 2003

cOULDN'T FORSEE



Whummmmm what can I say. for the past 2 years , I've heard the best advise from a person whom I least expected.
And the ironic thing is that i'm the one who was always giving advise (not to the person but to other people).


oVerall I felt confounded, here I'am listening to advice that actually made a hell of a lot of sense to me.
Scary thing is I realized how transparent I am to the person. Which in normal case people can't tell.

Things just get weirder now of days.

Whum I guess people do change, somewhat, whether it's apperance, intellectually, street-wiseness or just a shift on how we view ourselves or life.

Intrigueing.

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Monday, August 25, 2003

MetroSexual



Whumphhhh what if someone called you a metrosexual?
What's your deffition of it , REAd people !!!!!! As defined in Wordspy.com "http://www.wordspy.com/words/metrosexual.asp".
Don't go having your own deffition and insulting people.

metrosexual

(MET.roh.sek.shoo.ul) n. A dandyish narcissist in love with not only himself, but also his urban lifestyle; a straight man who is in touch with his feminie side.
—metrosexuality n.


The typical metrosexual is a young man with money to spend, living in or within easy reach of a metropolis — because that's where all the best shops, clubs, gyms and hairdressers are. He might be officially gay, straight or bisexual, but this is utterly immaterial because he has clearly taken himself as his own love object and pleasure as his sexual preference.

—Mark Simpson, "Meet the metrosexual," Salon.com, July 22, 2002


So basically were talking about someone who is typically obsessed about himself. btw Mark Simpson is the creator of this word. So get your facts right!

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TADaAaaaaaaaAaaaaaaa


Woooooo WOooooooooooooWOOOOOOoooooooooOOOoooooo
I prefer not to brag, but here I'am Bragging!!
Last weekend I went to both the British and Oz(AUS) education fair and actually spoke to a few profs from University of Sherfield (england) and University of Melbourne(Oz), and they said with my results (I showed them my transcript) and they said getting a place in their master programmes would be no problem for me.

wAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHhHhhhhh Terbang liaoooooooooo....


Ohh another thing, moi sis is getting married to this Ah moh from FLorida, WOoooo WOOoooo wOOooooo

and another thing, soon there will be a new Bad boy in the house (no it's not a baby lady and gentlemans) it's a new PC!!!!!!
StATE of the Art home PC!! muahuahauhaua all at wharehouse price and im not talking about chap Harimau!!
It's a DELL!!

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Friday, August 22, 2003

Off short hair and gals


Word of caution, never ever boast thaT you have long,delicate and beautiful hair (which I actually had) to gals which now have LONGER hair than me. BoyYyyYy the way they go

May : Nyahaha look look (flings her hair which I did not too long ago) Who has the longest hair now (and grins)

elaine : Woo Wooo (strokes her hair) aHHhHh soft delicate hair. too bad someone doesn't have it anymore (my hair was and
were softer than her's.

no.1(Charley): YAY!!! my hair is longer than yours!! My hair is longer than yours!! FINALLY!!! captain... are u STILL combing
your hair now that it's shorter than short????(no pun intended ;))

ze tuan(a guy): (During the whole Leo club meeting today he was staring at me with mouth open and throughout the mamak
session also). Daryan I don't believed you cut your hair. I don't recognize you now (and continued to stare in
bewildment (some of my friends had never seen me with short hair before, EVER)

cherie darhling : Better what. still longer than mine though.

Sorr Por(Meng Yin): So now who has the last laugh or the Ahem ahem Longest hair in the mamak table (and winks)

TWC da great : (Being a more practical and carreer orientated guy) . Huh what? Got interview ahhh

Boon hoong(another guy with long hair and still has): NOOOOooooooooo..but it's so sad. Now I'm all alone (he has a gf) in this world (he means the world of long hair),

and many many more comments that are unique and interesting.

So haven't seen me with long hair.. muahauhauhauahuahaua good luck on what you'll say to me for I'll jot it down mentally ^_^.


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Sunday, August 17, 2003

I'm BACK!!!!


Wooooooo Langkawi Cool, Haunted Yes Yes Yes no question asked, Cheap stuff, tons of cheap stuff.

Point to notice: People said I look more handsome,elegant , intelligent, sharper and younger in my new Short hair look. And I'm not blowing my own trumpet, This are what people are saying too me!!!! So if you haven't seen me with short hair yet you can easily make an appointment to see me!!!!(while I'm still bumming)


Came back from langkawi and staright away attended a "meeting of ancients". Things are brewing and foundations are being moved by old and new people alike. It's the choices that people make that determines whether the "times" will change. Based on experience of olden times and recent ambitions. Time will tell. But i do feel a slight tremor already.

Felt good to be one of the "ancients" eventhough I don't consider myself one of them. From my view I'm not as tough, wise and sharp as most people think I am. But i'm not to judge them what they think of me.


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Thursday, August 14, 2003

Off to Langkawi



UgHhh just discovered that I'm seriously left out in the world of anime,. nevermind Time will Remedy it!! oHhHh "TAken" by Steven Spielberg kick Ass!! It's better than band of brothers if you ask me in therms of directorship.(well we can't comparestoryline since one is non-fiction and the other sci-fiction)

I'm going off to Langkawi won't be back till Sunday night. Have fun everyone!!

Yes i know I'm spoilt, you in New mexico don't have to tell me thaT ^_^
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Wednesday, August 13, 2003

ahhhhhhHh of Langkawai and MArs




AhHhhhhhh KUdos to politics, it has been resolved. how?? a bit too long to write. But either which way I wasn't the supposed villain anymore like everyone thought I was. Especially when people start to think what's my motive?.

Next I'm off for a holiday trip from Friday to Sunday to Langkawi!! anyone wants some half-broken polluted sea shells??

oh did anyone tell you that MARS will be predominant when the moon is at its zenith?
Ok in english, Mars will be the biggest and brightest in visibility starting today till around august 27th in a 100 years. Especially when it is midnight and the moon is aligned in the middle of the sky. Like when the sun it is at the middle of the sky in the afternoon.

so people look at the MArs, and it is REALly RED!!
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Sunday, August 10, 2003

If push comes to shove


I've gotten myself into yet another leo political scandal. Probably the worse in my life because I've sort of saw it coming and yet I fell right into its trap. I'm so sick of playing politics ,especially ever since I've left the states which sort of make me let my guard down. down enough for young ,ambitious and power hungry leos to exploit. I saw it coming and I enterred right into the trap. why? I've asked myself that many times, in the past I'm always one of the onlookers, players or heck the leader of such despicable deceitful acts.
It was seriously a perfect setup, the words were correct, no witnesses as it is inconsequential in this foil. It's my words against his. So the foundation of the new blood nemesis has been lighted up again that was actually at peace. They just needed a scapegoat, someone to point finger at, someone to take the limelight and halt the investigation commitee to over see the real pepretrator. ME.
What's worse is thatm y own club in which I've pledged loyalty wouldn't even here my side of the story but believe in an outsider story. Whumph. If push comes to shove I'll resign my comission and my membership. If it'll end this bickering I'll do it. I don't really mind really , I've been planning to withdraw actually for some time now as the experiences are getting stale and boring.
'Familiarity breeds contempt' the quote still lingers on me. Perhaps , perhaps it's time to do something radical. The first step has already been taken with the cutting of my hair, and soon more may follow. Whether I like it or not I don't know. But what I do know is that it comes like a howling tornado, there's no stopping it's motion, no stopping its events and destruction that lies in its path.
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Saturday, August 09, 2003

Guess Guess?


For the first time in 4 years , Now my hair is SHORTER than say SHORT. Seeing is believing so see me with my short hair,
My barber/hair stylist was more distraught over cutting my hair than me, he was like saying , "Are you sure? Are you really sure? It's so sad". CUT IT ALREADY!!!! snip snip.
TaDaAaaAaaaaAa


nope no pics until I scan them :)P
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Friday, August 08, 2003

The interview of I


me :So what do you make of frustration
myself: It is the inner most anger that conceives from the inability to change something to a more favorable
outcome.
me : Whumm please explain more about the inability part.
myself: It is the agonizing torment that is created when one gains awareness that his or hers best effort are completely futile in
acheiving a goal.
myself: Futile?? Isn't that a bit to an extreme.
me : No it isn't, and it is especially worse if you sincerely did your best and has substantial wordly results
but the outcome is still suppress by other factors.
myself: Other factors? What do you mean.
me : That is exactly what i mean, factors that are both naturally circumstantial and entity related
effects. Outcomes thar are either indirectly affected by worldy events or directly attacked by certain
entities with specific motives.
myself: enemies?
me : If you put it that way, maybe.
myself: Whumm so what will the prolong effect of this frustration lead too.
me : You see, the root of frustration lies with fear, for it is fear of an uncertain future that kindles this
abhor emotion. But frustration itself is not alone, its brother anger is never far behind its heels..
When the feeling of helplessness set's in , anger will reign supreme that will in turn conjure up
hatred. And we all know what happen next.
myself: No I don't tell me.
me : You know, everyone knows, seek it in your deepest recesses of your soul. It's there, just suppressed
by your Id, Ego and Superego, block of from your consious thoughts. But it's there you'll feel it
before you see it
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Never cease to amaze


Let's see getting lost for close to two hours in cheras going through all the new housing estates like Taman suria Taman Desa Cheras , Taman permai chears and it likes through beautifully newly built roads that have street lights that are not powered and ghostly empyty completed houses for 30 mins without seeing a single car in the middle of the night is Frustration.
I've somehow managed to bypass Kajang from Cheras and ended up in Sungai Long without paying a single toll. MY destination the border of Cheras with Sri petaling. Boy Am I fuming.

Time to scream AGHHhhhGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGhGgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhghGHGhggHGHgHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Something thell me I'm having a lot of supress internal anger recently. Whumph. My next course of action being a big question mark ain't helping. Time to change my image, even contemplating a change of name if anything. BaHhhHHhhHhhHhhHhHHhHHhhh good advise "Famillarity breeds contempt" how true it is.

I'm branching out, I don't care, I'm frustrated, I'm bitter, I'm angry who won't be if someone is in my shoes? I won't be ignored!.

pschoanalysis : Your the type who can play the game and swallow your pride, but when you reach your burning point your likely to explode and go blazing with a machinegun in public.


Whummm thank god I can't get a gun here even if I want too.

Socioanalysis: You are an ADAPTER, you fit in and merge into any social click with ease. This may cause others to think that your a 2 headed snake or a master hypocrite.

Ahh wonders of modern surveys.

on the lighter side if you do call it lighter, i find my self more skeptical than before. Guess it happens, some things are too good to be true and require thorough investigation and research. Confucious said if something good happen unexpectedly it is always safer to proceed with caution. AhHhH I wonder if it's true? I'm a hard person this days, it's hard enough to gain my trust and it's even harder to regain them.
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Thursday, August 07, 2003

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Blast from the past


excerpt from a meeting with a friend
andrew : So my flight got cancelled and recheduled 5 times, Great huh?
moi: ErRrrrRrrrr RightTttTtt..
andrew: And Ivan(a mutual friend of ours) got to send me 3 times to the airport on the same day. So its 30 mins to and 30 mins fro.
At the end only the next day I have a plane that instead of the usual flight path from Lexinton to Chicago to Tokyo to
Singapore and to
KL, it went from Lexington to Detroit to London to Amsterdam to KL with transits at 8 hours per place.
Moi: ErRrRrRRrrRrr BaDddDddddd.

Another excerpt a day ago from a long long long time thought forgoten good friend. Whom as far as today managed to put the past behind us. (Gulp) I hope.

Olam:well, i figured that overall, you're still a great guy la and we're all humans despite our faults
moi : wrong im not a great guy and yes i have my own share of faults.
Olam : well, i'm not exactly great myself either so there, we're even la

And just like that it settles a 2 year span of cold war. Magically weird wouldn't it be?
Next An excerpt from a person in Lexington.

Ah pok : Hey my PC rosak can fix ah?
moi : Ermmm I'm in Malaysia lah!!
Ah pok : ohHhh righTTt I forgor.

p/s Ah pok was my apt mate.

aHhHhhhHhhhHhhHh what's next? AiksssssSs sleep beckons. Tomorrow is off to the land of the MEAT BONE TEA also known as Bah Kut Teh for some good food.


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Wednesday, August 06, 2003

eRRANDS eRRANDS


In 4 hours I went to 6 banks and paid 4 utilitu bills all across KL and the PJ district. HOOrAYyYYYYYYyyYyYyyy Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz it was so EXCITING!!!!!! I Couldn't sleep even if I wanted too!!.
UPdate No.1 is getting mushy and mellow..well it is as expected (snicker) ^_^. Someone in Oz has an argument about going to strip clubs alone and without their significant other while some other people think that they should both go to the strip club together. AHHhhHhHhHHh someone who's supposed to give me a cookie is at a crossroad of her life now in a way.
As for me thanks to some stupid people who decided to bomb the Mariott hotel, I'm not waiting for some dumb uni reply for my masters and I'm getting my resume ready for hell knows what job or university from other country.
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Sunday, August 03, 2003

Bad Bad boy


Here's a quote from someone "Oii you blogger ahhH? one week never blog liao". Yah yah yes mom I'm a Bad bad boy. LIVE WITH IT. As a bonus since I'm a BAD BAD BOY BLOGGER HERE ARE SOME PHOTOS FROM the LAST MONTH SINCE I GOT BACK FROM THE STATES.
The first is a picture of my Brats (Bright roving annoyiing teenager click) which is a community service organization under a mass-media company.

It seems my free webhosting server has some new RULEZZ So if you can't see the pic you got to click on here
CLICK TO SEE PIC ANd click on the bottom where it says to see pictures.
And the second one is from my LEo club (LEadership experience opportunity) which is also a community service club which deals pretty much with community service and international understanding.

The same apply for this picture!!
CLICK TO SEE SECOND PIC ANd click on the bottom where it says to see pictures.
Whummmmmmm been meeting a lot of people lately from 4 different circle of friends. GOt sick bad sore throat, no more curry for me until I cure I suggest.sent off a friend to San fran on thursday will get the photos up soon I hope.

byee
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